I've had visions and dreams about this, And I would one, would love to see this one come true. I have always wanted to go on a skiing vacation. Never been to one, and I like to see this one come true. Javier is the first person that I dream of having a vacation like this, I remember telling him about the dream and that he says that he would love to see us having a romantic getaway. Javier is very important to me, and I love him so much. And this surprise he says he has for me, finally he says I will have it soon, He wants to give it to me on the night of my birthday, which is two months from now, 1st of October. And I can't wait for that night. I'm gonna be 37 yrs old. yicks. Three years from now I will hit the big 40. I don't want to think about that... Anyways.
As much as I want this skiing vacation up in the mountains, I see a vision of me and Javier having the greatest time, playing outside and throwing snow balls at each other, and laughing. and chasing each other. I can see that vision now, And sitting by the fireplace, warming up and have hot chocolate. I can feel the love and warmness.
I want to marry him so much and have his children, He has a son, Daniel, And I feel like I am a parent to him, 3 yrs ago I found out his son's bday is the same day as mine, cool. I will be going bday shopping soon. I feel like I have my family, And I would love to have a daughter too, I love the name Zooey.
I pray every night just before I go to bed, and I tell god how much I love Javier and how much I love and miss my parents every day. I ask him about if I will have a miracle. And that miracle is to have a baby, with Javier. I want us to be a family. I love Javier and Daniel.
